I am desperate...Can anyone out there help me making tonne of legal money to be debt free?
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
New day of life
Money seems to be the most important thing that come to my mind today. It make my head spin like a roller coaster. Thinking weather I can or cannot dealing with all the debts that I have. Almost everything that I know had I try out but seems that non is working. To find extra income, years back I had been trying to involve with the recycle business, however I seems like it is working like a snail. For ever 100 penny that i invest the most that i make is only to gain back the investment of 100 penny. At the end I stop doing it. I know that this will not giving me my required return in a very short period.
Soon after that I go into farming. I plant chillies, Pepper, and lemon grass by hopping that it will grow well with very minimum investment. This also do not materialized. I ended up put more manpower to make it come true. By the time I realized it I am already broke. not even a penny to purchase fertilizer. Before I can get my capital back the crops died.
Then I venture into construction. A very small scale construction that worth of 46K. I supplying the labor to do the works. my return is only enough to pay for my petrol for 4 months. I almost loosing cause I can't employed an experience supervisor to look after my project. I only come to visit the site on Saturday and Sunday. I am not getting salary for the time I spent. In other words, I manage to pay back the amount that i borrow for this project. Now I can even pay myself if I will involve back in the industry running my own project. It very though.
The next thing that I do for my dream to be debt free is confectionery. this is crazy idea. I had been working for 18 hours per day and almost get my wife admitted into a hospital. Long hours of working but only be able to pay for my wife salary. That is about $10. per day. It is not worth it. By doing that I almost neglect my kids. No time for them. A sad situation. After 2 years I stop doing that. knowing that it will never come true.
Despite doing and giving almost everything that I had, I still having $230,000.00 bad debts. $137,980.00 is the debt of purchasing an apartment that is now being abandon by the developer. What I get is abandon apartment which i cannot stay in it and also the bank loan that i had to service monthly.
I am in a dire need of $230,000.00 to get my self debt free. I still looking in to possible solution to that. At this point all my salary is to pay my debts. Nothing for food and medicine. I am surviving on credits cards. This is the only choice that I can see even though I know that this will lead into more serious financial crisis.
Soon after that I go into farming. I plant chillies, Pepper, and lemon grass by hopping that it will grow well with very minimum investment. This also do not materialized. I ended up put more manpower to make it come true. By the time I realized it I am already broke. not even a penny to purchase fertilizer. Before I can get my capital back the crops died.
Then I venture into construction. A very small scale construction that worth of 46K. I supplying the labor to do the works. my return is only enough to pay for my petrol for 4 months. I almost loosing cause I can't employed an experience supervisor to look after my project. I only come to visit the site on Saturday and Sunday. I am not getting salary for the time I spent. In other words, I manage to pay back the amount that i borrow for this project. Now I can even pay myself if I will involve back in the industry running my own project. It very though.
The next thing that I do for my dream to be debt free is confectionery. this is crazy idea. I had been working for 18 hours per day and almost get my wife admitted into a hospital. Long hours of working but only be able to pay for my wife salary. That is about $10. per day. It is not worth it. By doing that I almost neglect my kids. No time for them. A sad situation. After 2 years I stop doing that. knowing that it will never come true.
Despite doing and giving almost everything that I had, I still having $230,000.00 bad debts. $137,980.00 is the debt of purchasing an apartment that is now being abandon by the developer. What I get is abandon apartment which i cannot stay in it and also the bank loan that i had to service monthly.
I am in a dire need of $230,000.00 to get my self debt free. I still looking in to possible solution to that. At this point all my salary is to pay my debts. Nothing for food and medicine. I am surviving on credits cards. This is the only choice that I can see even though I know that this will lead into more serious financial crisis.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Beautiful today
Festival season is comming soon. Everybody are in the festive mood already. For me there is no difference.. Wanted to celebrate but what I have is just enough to pay for next month expenses..there is no room for celebration..I feel sad cause I can't give my kids more than they ask for...
Monday, August 22, 2011
Beginning of life
Hi there..Welcome to my blog " Beautiful LIFE ".
Introduction to my self. I am an engineer by profession and had been in this field for more than 10 years. As all of us always wanted to be, so do I. My dream is alway want to live my life to the fullest, having almost everything and any can always give almost everything to the needy. In me, there is generosity but the dark side of me is greediness. Deep inside me there is love but hatred always following very closely.
I am born in a very poor family. having nothing at all. Even what I call home by that time is no better than a hut. Food..Money...New cloths...festival...entertainment...almost unreachable. My parents is just a farmer. Planting padi for whole year consumption. In other word..what my parents earn today will never last until tomorrow. Debts keep on pile up for my parents...
Now my parents still go to farm...still planting padi..still tapping rubber which is not belong to us..I am piss off...I always asking myself, My parents raise me up until I am what i am now but why do I still cannot support them.
I owe my parents more than I owe everyone else in this world. I hardly put rice in their bowl....I love my parents very much but never care to bring them for medical check up...What kind of son am I ?.....I am an engineer with thousands of bad debt...where is the light for this darkness.
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