Beautiful today

Festival season is comming soon. Everybody are in the festive mood already. For me there is no difference.. Wanted to celebrate but what I have is just enough to pay for next month expenses..there is no room for celebration..I feel sad cause I can't give my kids more than they ask for...

Beginning of life

Hi there..Welcome to my blog " Beautiful LIFE ".

Introduction to my self. I am an engineer by profession and had been in this field for more than 10 years. As all of us always wanted to be, so do I. My dream is alway want to live my life to the fullest, having almost everything and any can always give almost everything to the needy. In me, there is generosity but the dark side of me is greediness. Deep inside me there is love but hatred always following very closely.

I am born in a very poor family. having nothing at all. Even what I call home by that time is no better than a hut. Food..Money...New cloths...festival...entertainment...almost unreachable. My parents is just a farmer. Planting padi for whole year consumption. In other word..what my parents earn today will never last until tomorrow. Debts keep on pile up for my parents...

Now my parents still go to farm...still planting padi..still tapping rubber which is not belong to us..I am piss off...I always asking myself, My parents raise me up until I am what i am now but why do I still cannot support them.

I owe my parents more than I owe everyone else in this world. I hardly put rice in their bowl....I love my parents very much but never care to bring them for medical check up...What kind of son am I ?.....I am an engineer with thousands of bad debt...where is the light for this darkness.